First entry since returning home!

I've already been home 2+ months! How crazy is that? Not one day passes without me thinking about my mission and longing to be there with my loved ones, the people I've served and the people I've served with.

It is a strange feeling coming back. Seeing how things have changed. People, friends, area, city, music, style. Everything especially ME. Being on a mission I found myself. I found a person who loved others, was loved and a person I LOVED being. I love Estonia and it's people with all of my heart. I'm praying to feel the same about Sweden! It is strange to be home with a bunch of people I know but that know nothing about the experiences I've had! The people who know that who were by my side through it all, would either be in America or still serving in Estonia.  Throughout my life I've seen missionaries return from their missions and I've always wondered why they have such a hard time adjusting back and explaining to people what they have experienced. But now I know! There is NO way you can put down experiences from 18-24 months into a couple of sentences. It is something that needs to be experienced to be able to know!

I can say that I've learned to see people for who they really are, I've learned to love people for who they are, even strangers. Most important of all I have learned that I am loved. I am loved by my family, by people around me and by my Heavenly Father. I always knew that God loved his children, I just wasn't sure he loved me. I have however felt his love for me and seen it expressed through countless acts of love from people around me, small little signs sent from Him that only He and I know of! God is good!

Now, life at home has been good too don't get me wrong. I've visited Finland where I had the opportunity to go to the Temple with members of my beloved Estonian family. I've been able to spend time with my family and friends at home, celebrate Christmas, help my sister move, cut some hair and do some up-do's again. I've also been to the gym and to the Temple quite a bit! Serving in my callings in Young Women and the YSA (Young Single Adult) committee has helped give me a purpose, people to love and serve - that which I most love doing!

God is good! Keep that in mind and think of ways to spread goodness in this world!